Thursday, May 14, 2015

The Last Supper

Today I realized how soon we are moving.  We leave Tuesday!!! Like soon!  I'm so excited but no matter how great or confident you feel there's always little bit of nerves.  I'm not the only one like that, right?

Things I'm nervous for:

No internet while moving and screwing up my online school grades
No couch and a blow up mattress for the summer (hahah, I still laugh at this)
Feeling isolated because  I won't be working
Jacob actually not liking this company (I doubt that)
Martín dying on our roadtrip there and back 

Things I'm excited for:

Roadtrip! (I say this before we leave knowing I will regret this later)
Learning how to crochet better
A bajillion miles closer to the east coast and a culture that I might actually understand
Art museum
Opportunities for my sweet husband!
$$$$$ (Lesbihonest)
Jacob and I....just the two of us!

Today we had dinner with Brindizi, Micah, and Kyle.  It was great.  We had a realization though that while Brindi is in China this fall, she's missing the "last semester" where all of us friends will be together in Rexburg.  While I do feel ready to say goodbye to this place soon (sometimes not soon enough) I know I'm not ready to say goodbye to these people.  I know I will see them again.  *insert sappy sentence about how our friendship is forever*....but really.  There's a difference between a friend and people you have lived with.  Nothing breaks that.  Anyways, Brindi leaves a couple days after we get back from Indy and arrives back to Idaho the weekend we'll probably leave after graduation this December.  Hence the title "The Last Supper". 

I love this place, my friends, and all the extreme crazy growth I've experienced.  Today I was walking and thinking to myself: You know what?  I may not have it all together and constantly wonder how everything is going to work out but guess what?  It does!  It always works out, I have my husband, we financially take care of ourselves, we have opportunities, and we have an incredible support system.

School is hard.  I'm at my breaking point.  Having your best friends live in different states/countries is hard.  Having change be your constant is hard.  But, I wouldn't have it any other way right now.  It's funny how the saying goes "When it's right, it's right."

That's all for now folks,


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